after learning all that I've learned, I've discovered that I have a loser. There is no other way to really see it. All I have not done. All I have not experienced. All of my shortcomings.

I know what's important in life now.
at least more than I did.
and I want my chance to try to attain the important things.
but I'm still hating myself for all that I've done wrong.

still hating.