“Don’t be afraid your life will end; be afraid it will never begin.”

-Grace Hansen

I'm afraid.

loneliness and emptiness - they cause almost all my symptoms

my unhappiness, my distress, my pain.


I try to control the damage as much as possible

that's what I've been doing all these years.


On night's like this - when I'm in my screwed up mood and I can't say anything right, do anything right, I can't stand it. I can't stand that I can't be myself on a regular basis. I can't stand that I could do so much if I wasn't hounded by these constant feelings.

I hate the dark sides of me.

I wish they didn't exist.

I really hope my future is okay - or stable - or something. please. please.

please




pride (sort of) meaning (no) connections (no)

when will it end

I wish I could just blend in

and not always be isolated by the constant chaos in my head


loneliness
emptiness

to the greatest extent


add on that extreme problems with my future?

I'm surprised I don't act even more awkward and stupid than I already do. It's too much.

there comes a point in time where you are just frankly tired of being miserable.

everything's a mess.