How fucked I am:

-15-20 page paper due Tuesday for my methods and tools class. (I'm on page 9).
-Sociology Write-up + Presentation due Monday. Read two more chapters in the book + many shorter readings.
-Biology: test Friday, 5 page paper due Next Friday, presentation with paper (optional but I think I need to do it for my grade), Small Lab due Friday.
-Abnormal Test Next Friday. Read three more chapters in the book before then.

That's what I have to due within the next week and a half, and right after that, the monday after, I start finals.

Its even worse considering that for each of my classes, close to 50% of my grade is decided in the next week and a half.

Add in the fact that I'm going through one of the more emotionally stressing times in my life, cried more this week than I have in a year, and just having a hard time feeling even an ounce of happiness... these next few weeks are going to be rather difficult.

I had a great conversation with my cousin last night, and with the help of conversations I've had with two friends the previous two days... as well as one I had today.. my situation is out in the open and the solution has never been so clear. I realize, for sure now, that my problem is entirely social. I personally find myself to be a great person who has yet to truly find himself. I've made plenty of mistakes in the past that have caused me great difficulty, but I can't beat myself up for them. I don't hate myself. I don't think that I am a loser at all. I feel that other people see me as a loser, as ordinary, as not worthwhile, as boring, as just someone that doesn't matter. I realize that I need to change that, and feel that I can justify people liking me. I admit, with my limited accomplishes/skills/talents/hobbies/interests I will not appeal to many people just on that fact, but I still feel like I could appeal to some. I do feel that I am lovable now, but not to many people, because I simply don't offer enough to most people to be considered a person that they truly "love". Now, that only thing that is holding me back is "So Chris, if you are indeed likable and lovable, where's da proof?" "Uh..." "Got you there!"
Okay. I do have friends, and close friends, but very little. And even though that should be enough, its very hard to accept, because this so is little proof its hard to fully acknowledge. There seems to be so much proof against my ability to be liked and loved, and not for it.

=/.