I just want to yell, yell, yell and get all of this out of me. I wish I could cry until all this emotion left me and I could feel okay.

I never feel okay. Always troubled. Can't sleep because of it. Can't connect with others. At all. Or if I do, I get nervous, anxious, and close myself off, because I can't open myself up because of all these emotions. I feel like what's inside isn't worth much and I feel that if I open up that fact will be exposed.

I can't stand it. I really can't stand it.

To have nothing and feel incapable of ever getting something.

This is me.