Frankly I'm tired of all this pain and misery. Having a life I don't want and being a person that I don't like. Realizing more and more how legitimate my feelings are and therefore how misunderstood I am by those around me. I don't want to be this way.

All summer I've tried to figure out this life and get to somewhere I want to be, but I haven't been able to get there. I don't even know where I'm going.

I feel empty, lonely, incomplete and incompetent.

College soon, sophomore year. Am I excited? I don't get excited anymore.