every day there is something new, or many many things new, that can hurt me, drive my self-esteem down, make me feel unwanted, make me feel so, so down.

=(

I probably wasn't on anyone's lists for bigs in APO, except for people I know. I want to meet someone new, the potential friendship is there, and I want that.

but I just feel like its not going to work out, because most of the time it doesn't. another thing to feel down about.