I want to connect with people, yet I'd rather be alone right now. I could call people to hang out, but I'm prefer to go read a book.
I'm living a contradiction right now.
I know why too. I don't feel right. I feel that there is no point of making a strong effort to socialize because it would not amount to anything. As long I feel this emptiness, I feel that I will never be able to connect with people again.
Hard place to be in.