I've never truly thought that I was good enough for anyone, but today is one of those days when I don't feel I'm good enough to even LIKE anyone, as I feel it is insulting/degrading to them in some way. And also, I guess its because when I do have feelings for someone, it is because in my mind/heart I feel that there is a slight, slight chance that I am a respectable candidate for them. On today's like today, I don't see how anyone could see me in that way.

This task of creating of positive self-image sometime in the near future is quite daunting given my current position.

And today was another day when I could barely formulate one coherent sentence to come from my mouth. I know most other people don't notice or are use to it by now, and I also know that thinking about it won't change anything, but still, its so very frustrating to not to even be able to speak.