the hardest part is....

that every one

makes me feel like

I'm not good enough

not good enough of a person

not worth enough

for anyone to care

and this feeling

brings the tears

the fact that

through all of this

instead of


friends stepping up

to help me out

they step aside

and leave me

to fend for myself

I thought

I would see the true colors of my friends

and I thought they would be pretty

but they

don't seem to be

pretty at all

I thought I would gain friends

but instead

I feel like

I'm losing them all