I can say that one thing has been really bothering me the past few days, but surprisingly hasn't held my mood down: my intelligence. I'm starting to believe that I'm quite the idiot. I just have a lot of "Chris idiot moments". I say many things that don't make sense and represent an overall lack of mental competence. I know I'm not the smartest guy, but I'd like to think I'm at least sort of intelligent. Intelligent enough to learn new things, expand my knowledge field, and have good reason. That would be nice.