loneliness and emptiness - they cause almost all my symptoms

my unhappiness, my distress, my pain.


I try to control the damage as much as possible

that's what I've been doing all these years.


On night's like this - when I'm in my screwed up mood and I can't say anything right, do anything right, I can't stand it. I can't stand that I can't be myself on a regular basis. I can't stand that I could do so much if I wasn't hounded by these constant feelings.

I hate the dark sides of me.

I wish they didn't exist.

I really hope my future is okay - or stable - or something. please. please.

please




pride (sort of) meaning (no) connections (no)

when will it end